There are problems in the world today
like hunger, strife, and war,
there's things I should be doing
to raise the noble score,
there's errands to be running
and my endless stream of chores,
but my feet are sore, I have a beer
and I just don't give a shit.

Powerless to Mend

 

In the distant closeness

a girl is gathering

the fragments

of her once-vibrant

heart.

 

Some fragments

to cherish

and some to scold

and some to reassemble

into a form that’s almost whole.

 

I cannot shield her

from her sorrow

nor sacrifice

my comfortable life

to mend her spirit,

though if some merchant

or mystic

could bargain away

her tears

in exchange for

any period of my own heartbreak

I’d point out that I’m already paying

and that his service is past-due.

 

And though I mourn

as a father

for a child’s ruined dream

my heartache

makes no better adhesive

than her tears

and memories.

It wasn't even as bad I expected.  My family is still really uncomfortable around each other, but we (mostly) got along.

Tomorrow I return my rental and get the title of my Mitsubishi signed over to me.  When I get all that done I will finally, at long last, be done with this year's December bullshit.

This is always an invigorating experience for me: Christmas behind me and a new year looming in a few days.

The Geico employee who is handling my claim is fucking a fucking idiot.  It's been over three weeks since my accident and today I found out it's going to be at least one more week, thanks to her incompetence.

I'm glad Tippin is back in Edmond.  My life needs more Daniel Tippin.

It really sucks that I don't get to see Lyndsie on Fridays and Saturdays.  If I weren't so damn broke I'd visit her at Sauced.  ...So I could make fun of her.

I need to find ways to reward myself that don't involve eating.

December this year has turned out as shitty as Decembers usually do.  Plus I'm the one who ruined my family Christmas this year, and I've still got that awkward family gathering to look forward to.

I ruined my perfect 4.0 GPA.  I'm a little disappointed, but mostly I just feel relieved.

It's impossible to predict the future.  Life is full of surprises.  "The future you have tomorrow won't be the future you had yesterday."  -Chuck Palahniuk